Wednesday, January 6, 2010

before I curl up into a ball

At least for the next little while, the world has ended. I don't feel like sharing much at the moment, but I'll say this: Sean, Dad, and I were there in time to witness Mom's passing. Her heart stopped beating, and just to be sure she was comfortable, a tech added morphine to her line. She passed away, her chest still moving from the ventilator. David arrived just after she had gone.

Mom died of her own accord; no extubation was necessary. I don't attribute any volition to her timing-- as if she had somehow chosen her moment-- though I suppose it's romantic to think that she died on her own terms. That's fine with me. And who knows? Maybe it's the truth. Personally, I think she was already gone, so this was only a matter of time.

Rest in peace, Mom.


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28 comments:

gcotharn said...

Condolences

Anonymous said...

Dear Brother -

May you find peace and comfort in this time of grief. My prayers are with you and your family.

Henry

Anonymous said...

We are sorry for your loss.
Our prayers are with you and your family.

The Rims

Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers with you and your loved ones

John McCrarey said...

Kevin, just wanted to wish you and your family the hope that you find comfort during this time of loss.

Thank you for sharing the story of your mother's extraordinary struggle. It was courageous and I'm sure sometimes difficult for you to do so, but your effort honored her memory in a unique and touching way.

God bless you.

Horace Jeffery Hodges said...

So sorry to hear this, Kevin, though we were expecting it. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family in your time of loss.

Jeffery Hodges

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Tasshin said...

Sorry to hear. Take good care.

Anonymous said...

Our condolences. We are sorry for you loss.

RIP.

-JMac & Family

David Wellbaum said...

Condolences. Be strong.

Sean said...

My condolences and prayers for you and your family.

Curtis S. said...

Sorry to hear this Bro.
Peace be with you and yours.

KimcheeGI said...

Kevin,

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thanks for sharing this difficult part of your family life.

Charlie & Hyungmi

Nathan B. said...

My condolences, Kevin.

Sheryl said...

Love to you all - thank you for telling your story.

Sheryl Wood

nytae1977 said...

I am sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Malcolm Pollack said...

Kevin, I'm so sorry for your loss. It is beyond all words.

I'm glad your mom's ordeal - and yours - is over. Please know that all of our thoughts are with you.

No mother ever had a more loving son.

usinkoreafaith said...

Sorry to hear about this. She is at peace now.

I wish the best for you and family. I know how hard it can be. My father has been in bad shape for a couple of years with no chance of getting better and just waiting to get worse. I know it's hard...

Terry Douglas said...

My heartfelt sympathies for you and your family's loss, Kevin.

Take heart in the fact that everyhing that could have been done was done and that you were all there with her every step of the way. I'm sure that was extremely comforting to her, and now she is at peace.

Take care.

gordsellar said...

Kevin,

I'm so sorry to hear this. My condences to you and your family, and I hope peace and joyful memories visit you, amid everything else...

Conservative in Virginia said...

I'm sorry to learn of your loss. Please accept my deepest sympathy.

~Sarafina~ said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Lorianne said...

I'm sorry for your loss. You and your family continue to be in my heart.

sarpersarper said...

Dear Kevin,
I've been following your blog for a while now and i am so sorry for your loss. i'm from turkey/istanbul and my mother has also diagnosed with GBM in last july. reading your blog made me more comfortable towards the treatment that my mum is receiving... she has finished her radiation therapy and now receiving her monthly temodal rounds. thank you for sharing your emotions and again, i hope that you and your family will find comfort during this time of sorrow.

Michael Gilleland said...

I'm very sorry. May you and your family find comfort and peace.

Sperwer said...

Kevin:

Your effort during your mother's illness was magnificent. Don't stop.

K.

GI Korea said...

It is very sad to read about your mother's passing. I would like to offer my condolences as well and wish you and your family all the best in this difficult time.

Party Pooper said...

Real sorry to hear it. Take care of yourself man.

Gregory Curley said...

Kevin,

My condolences go out to you and your family. I wish you strength in these times of hardship.